Here we are 15 years and 21 mins since you took your last breath was that time 15 years ago when my heart truely broke and no matter how long goes by our even having your siblings it never makes it whole they will always be that missing piece of my heart and it’ll never be whole till I hold you again and I will never let you go, trying to hold back the tears today but they just keep coming from nowhere , I love and miss you so so much a wonder what you would be like now , forever heartbroken will see you again one day baby girl mammy loves you beyond life itself xxxxxxxxx

Well this week has been a really hard week princess I’ve struggled so hard I do every year the lead up to the day you were taken away from me , my heart breaks so much I think of you all the time , what you would look like , what your personality would be like, what things would you like to eat and things you enjoy doing , you would be at the age we would sit and talk and shop together , I miss you so very much baby girl , why was you taken away from me why do I have to live the pain all the time , I remember every bit of pain that day the feelings I had I know you didn’t want to come out I could feel it and they made you come out I wanted to die that day with you I know I had to look after your brother but my heart was torn and when you took your last breath you took my heart with you , I love you so very much baby girl and I’ll never stop missing you till the day I hold you in my arms keep shining bright in them stars love you all the universe and more love mam xxxxxxx

So today is baby loss awareness and it’s got me thinking even more of you today I always think of you but today it’s bringing so many memories back of the day you for taken away from me , am sat here with your new baby sister who was born 32 days ago and am feeling guilty I don’t have you here with me it’s so horrible to think as to why I got to keep the others but not you why did you have to be taken away my heart hurts so much my eyes are flooding with tears I miss you so much my little princess I love you with every beat of my heart and 1 day al be back holding you in my arms I love you baby girls always and forever xxxxxxx